I'll Make It...I'll Be Somebody...Someday...You'll See

An explanation of the title would be, inside joke between me and Cam, basically over the dreams I have for my life, and their seeming impossibility. Along those lines, lets get started...

For my regulars, circa 01 April 2005 I posted "Miscellaneous" about how my hopes for an internship at my church, Larkridge, have basically fell through. It sucks, I love ministry, it's what I want to do with my life. At the same time, it has caused me to come to grips with a certain reality of my life as of right now...I'm running on empty and have really no good reason to be pursuing ministry at the current time. I need time off. It really sucks to have to say that, I've tried to put on the mask I've been ok and ready to go..easy to do in my current situation since I've been there for a couple of years, I know the ropes, easy to fake it. Not so easy when making a transition to a new ministry position. I need to spend some time getting my heart back, walking with God, restoring the intimacy I once had and treasured with Him, taking care of some heart issues that have come up. I've let that aspect of my life slide for far to long and if I continue, I'm toast. There, I said it, I'll not be doing ministry for probably at least 6 months to a year. My dreams are still the same, building community in the Pacific Northwest (Oregon, Washington, Vancouver, B.C.), but I need my heart back to be able to do that. On the bright side, I am looking at NieuCommunities to help prepare me after my break, and the best thing is they do have a project in Vancouver, B.C. That is my life right now, it'll be tough, but I'll make it...you'll see!

Cheers!
Josh